We’re going on month four of Quarantine, with virtually no end in sight. For months, we’ve worked away in our homes, sitting on Zoom meetings and trying to replace the social interactions we long for now that we’re apart. Many companies have announced their workforces are going to be remote through the end of the year. Companies are continuing with furloughs and layoffs. There’s uncertainty, stagnancy, and confusion.
And in the middle of it all, we’re lonely.
For me, it feels a little like Groundhog Day. Wake up. Pray. Get dressed. Work. Take a walk. Work more. Take a virtual yoga class. Make dinner. Talk on the phone. Walk again. Read. Sleep.
The same things, over and over and over.
The stuck-ness and the loneliness are ever-present.
We crave forward momentum. We crave movement. But right now, we just are.
Today we celebrate the feast of St. Martha, who knows this feeling too well. While she’s bustling around serving Jesus, her sister Mary is sitting on the floor at his feet. When she complains to Jesus, He responds:
“Martha, Martha, you are anxious and worried about many things. There is need of only one thing. Mary has chosen the better part and it will not be taken from her.”
As long as we measure our value by our forward motions, we’re not going to make it much farther in this stuck-ness. I am most definitely anxious and worried about many things right now. That is, until I pause and turn back to prayer.
You see, while I might see each day as a carbon copy of the last, Jesus is transforming my heart through prayer. I’m becoming more patient. I’m becoming more trusting. I’m becoming more grateful and joyful and present. The monotony of the outside world is nothing compared to the transformation of my heart.
We’re not “stuck.” Sure, things might be a little slow right now, but we’re not stuck. Go to prayer. Ask Jesus to open your eyes, and for the grace to just rest at His feet. We don’t have to keep “doing.” We can just be with Him.
We are exactly where we are supposed to be.
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Jane Kennedy lives in Washington, DC. She is a graduate of UC Santa Barbara and works in criminal justice reform. When she’s not working or writing, she’s probably catching up with friends on FaceTime, getting lost in Rock Creek Park, quoting C.S. Lewis, or trying to recreate Salt and Straw ice cream at home.